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The best bad grade I ever got

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During the second quarter of my freshman year of high school, I got a “D” in a class I easily could have aced: physical education (PE).

Why? Because I let myself be swayed by a friend.

She was perpetually late for class, and begged me to wait for her while she finished dressing out. So we were both late. Even though I liked running, I walked with her when our class did laps because she didn’t want to be alone.

Peer pressure, especially in those teen years, is a bitch.

But that poor grade was a gift. A wake-up call.

Sad as it is, the “D” gave me an excuse to be myself again without losing a friend. (Whether I should call her a friend or not is a discussion for another day.) Now when she was running late, I just told her I couldn’t risk another bad grade and left the locker room. And I could play the grade card when it was time to run laps.

I actually liked PE. Never a star at any particular sport, I was a decent general athlete, and I enjoyed playing sports. I even dove into third base during a PE softball game at the cost of half the skin on my lower leg. But I made it. 😉

The fact that I liked the class makes it even worse that I needed any kind of excuse to do what I really wanted. But as teenagers—and sometimes as adults—we often need a reason to justify why we won’t “be cool” or go with the crowd.

You should see the looks I sometimes get when people find out I don’t like to drink alcohol or that I don’t eat food from that comes from animals. They’re the kind of looks that have me conjuring up excuses in my head to defend myself. It’s a struggle not to use them. I don’t want to care about the opinions of people who don’t have my best interests at heart. And really, does anyone but me?

Ever since that I received that poor grade, I’ve tried to be more true to myself, without excuses.

There’s been a lot of talk in some of my writing groups lately about the reaction of friends and family to our stories. Romance writers often include—gasp!—sex in their books. If it’s done well, it’s not gratuitous, but enhances the emotional connection and increases the conflict between the characters. It raises the stakes and gives the reader an intimate glimpse into the hero and heroine’s changing attitudes toward each other during an act where they’re emotionally and physically vulnerable.

Every writer needs to stick with their own comfort level, but I don’t believe you can write stories that really resonate if you’re worrying about what your mother, brother, sister-in-law, or kids will think of your writing. As if our inner critic isn’t harsh enough, now we need to add the voices of the people around us?

Whether they dislike the sex, swearing, graphic violence, or your character’s political views, they’re not your target reader. Their opinions really shouldn’t matter.

Easier said than done, I know.

And for now, if you need an excuse—your own “D” to wave around when someone tries to push you down a path you don’t want to go—make something up. (I tell my kids I’ll be their excuse any time.)

Tell the naysayers you’ll never sell a book in your genre if it doesn’t have X in it. If you’re lucky enough to have an agent or editor, use them the way kids use parents. “Well, my agent advised…”

And maybe, eventually, you’ll be strong enough to own what you write, embrace it, and be bold enough that everybody’s talking about it. Personally, I’m still working on it.

Like a friend and bestselling author recently told me with regard to her writing, “You want people to love it or hate it, not say, ‘Eh.’”

Is there something in your life you need a “D” for?

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  1. Reply

    That was great!!!! What a life lesson for those of us worried about pleasing others. I have struggled with this for years. You are right it is hard. Thanks for sharing your story.

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      sthornton1972: Thanks! I suppose it’s something I’ll always struggle with, but it gets easier as I get older. Hopefully someday I’ll be that eccentric old lady who doesn’t give a rip what anyone thinks. 😉

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    Hi Gwen,
    Really enjoyed your post.

    My father had a simple philosophy RE: “Peer pressure.” It was uncomplicated, disturbingly clear and more than fourth right. On more than one occasion I have heard his words echoing in my head when I was caught in the ambivalence of who’s choice to make, mine or theirs. ” Son”,—- I hear him say today as certainly as I did the first time I heard him introduce me to his guiding philosophy when I was fourteen. “Son, tell them to k……..” My father trusted my refinement to the professors. He prepared me for life.

    Life is to short. Write what you want to.

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        Gwen,

        I think it is doubly hard for people today. We, by no stretch of the imagination live in community. We live in division. The stress on being politically correct seems to have increased that division and multiplied divisions . As a result, I think we swapped curiosity, imagination and discovery for the need to be “right.” So, I have to explain to you why I write romance –or not.

        There is an interesting twist to that today. Not everyone feels the need to justify themselves by way of explanation. They do not defend themselves. They establish themselves as “right” by proving others “wrong.” i.e. a zillion questions that carry the implication, “How can you call yourself a writer and write romance?”

        Strength in diversity is not much a theme song today. To bad too. Ignoring that strength really slows us down.

        Life is to short. Write what you want to. 🙂

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          Interesting point, Curtis. I hadn’t thought of it that way. It’s kind of like the bullies who pick on others to make themselves feel better.

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    Ack, that D must have hurt. But glad it provided a life lesson. Why is it we sometimes feel the need to justify our decisions? Human nature, I suppose. Great post.

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      Alison: It really did! I don’t know why we always have to justify ourselves. The need to be liked and accepted, I guess. The problem is when we care about the wrong people’s opinions. Thanks!

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    Yeah, that’s right. I’m way behind. Don’t know if you saw my post on it, but I’m just now coming out of hibernation (creatively and socially). Just want to give a resounding “Amen!” to this post. Like Curtis said,

    “Life is to short. Write what you want to.”

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